On this day last year, I had the blood test that revealed that I was very, very sick.
It has been a challenging year, frought with physical illness, financial stress, emotional distress, and
lots of adjustments.
(And did I mention surgery, CT scan, MRI, countless blood draws, iv's, bone marrow test, colonoscopies, endoscopy and too many dr appointments and specialists to count!?)
However, it has also been a learning time.
A time full of surrender, reflection, prayer, quiet time,
contemplation, and relinquishment.
I have seen that God can take something bad, and make something good out of it.
That our lives are full of His purpose, and plan.
That He doesn't have to explain everything to us--He doesn't need for us to
understand, nor does He need our permission.
He is GOD.
I learned how much I don't know. That there is much for me to learn.
I have also learned that I am a much weaker person than I thought I was--we all are.
And that I need God for every single thing--including my next breath.
I have also learned that each day of life is a gift.
This has been a struggle at times-as I often have "down days".
But it is still true!
Every minute needs to be enjoyed and savored.
I no longer take laughter, breezes, rain drops, the smell of cut grass, and
lots of other things for granted.
Am I better?
Well, physically I'm a lot better than I was...
And for that, I am thankful!
Spiritually, well, I have a long way to go yet. :)
I don't know what the future holds,
but I do know Who holds my future.
Thank you Lord for another day!
Enjoy yours too :)
“Boast not thyself of to morrow;
for thou knowest not what a day may bring forth.”